Thousand Foot Krutch

Thousand Foot Krutch
I love this band. I listen to them daily. Even though we are looking at another camera, we all look like we're alert for it being a fan signing and it's 11:30 p.m. on a Friday.

31 May 2011

Her Mother's Hope Review

This is a great read by Francine Rivers!

Just read "Marta's Legacy: Her Mother's Hope." Anyone who's ever tried to fulfill their parents' dreams, or who have had high expectations for their children, or dreamed big dreams and fell in love, this is for them!

A native of Switzerland, Marta's father is a cold, cruel man who forces brilliant Marta to quit school and work, while allowing her brother Hermann, who hates school, to continue attending. She tries to keep up her education, but can't. After a conversation with her mother, she flees her homeland and strikes out to own her own inn. She experiences a lot of changes in her life and eventually creates her inn in Canada, but falls in love with a German engineer who eventually can't find work and moves around until they get to California. She has her daughter Hildemara in a cabin alone. She discovers her sister was raped by the son of the wealthiest couple in their town and, after getting pregnant and losing her mother, commits suicide. Marta's determined that will never happen to her or any of her posterity (which we discover does in the second book). She is strict with her daughter, a gentle girl, who eventually does the same to her own daughter, who becomes close to Marta instead of the mother.

Basically, the story shows how the strained maternal relationship began and gives some insight into possible reasons why (Marta's abusive father and sister's rape, for example). The novel was thoroughly enjoyable and explored the themes of forgiveness, generational problems and healing, as well as showing how each develops and maintains a relationship with God.

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


30 May 2011

A day that seemed like a nightmare

Today was such an awful day. I was upset the whole day (I hate working on Sundays), and it was hot and sticky and everyone just kind of wandered around. Plus, and mostly I laugh about this, a girl rang up a $25.68 order as $2568. I was in charge. I was the cashier and I tried to keep the line moving, but it was hard, because people just want to stand there and wait for it. Maybe it's amusing. Then people complained about tables (they're probably picking the only dirty table in the dining room) at least three times. Clearly we didn't look short staffed (there were three of us, one cook and a "floater" who mostly cleaned tables and washed dishes and cut up food) but we were, and we would have been even more shorthanded if we hadn't foreseen this. Tomorrow will be worse. Ugh, it was a disaster. Plus, someone thought they were entitled to free food, instead of it being thrown away (they weren't willing to pay for their "extra" food). People just want free crap. It's awful. And people kept cutting in line, and my voice hurts! And the people in charge of cash threatened me. I just want them to call my manager. I really do! Nothing is going to happen! I don't even work for them, I just work at the park, and I never will and I never want to. I tried to plaster a smile on, but it was hard.

Most of the people are mundane, but some are nice! One set of guys I think were high or something, they were confusing me, it would have been amusing otherwise. Another one was like, "Did you forget I said I could have refills?" Because I had a vacant look on my face when he asekd (I was thinking someone got away without paying for a THIRD three-entree). I didn't, and I apologized and smiled.

Another one was like, "Cheer up, Rachel, you look ---" and I can't remember what word he used (synonym for pinched, stressed). It was a weird (but fun) phrase. Then he tried to make me pay for the meal, but I wouldn't. His card worked. Really, he was all over the place, but it was great! It helped my day get better. I like it when people use my name, but sometimes it's freaky and I know they're trying to get me to do stuff for them.

I need more days off.

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


29 May 2011

Francine Rivers' Sons of Encouragement series

Francine Rivers produced five novellas about five men who were behind great men of history: Aaron, the first priest, Caleb, one of the two men who believed the Israelites could conquer despite ten nays, Jonathan, David's best friend, Saul's son and heir and the prince, Amos, a minor but important prophet, and Silas, the scribe. Men would love this inspiring series. Even young women can learn from these "behind-the-scenes" great men; being heroic is something everyone needs to do. Included in each is a Bible study on their life so that readers can form their own intelligent thoughts about each of these men. Yet another must-read by clever and creative author Francine Rivers.

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


28 May 2011

Left Behind Review

Tim LaHaye and Jerry B. Jenkin's innovative series Left Behind sparked interest in Revelation, the Apocalypse and the End Times. A fan of the last book of the Bible, Left Behind is a beautiful book even though sometimes people wonder just how many pilots couldn't believe in God before and why they suddenly were all changing their minds.

Left Behind is a challenging and fascinating perspective on the least-talked about book in the Bible, Revelation, although Revelation is by far one of the most important books in the Bible. These two authors create a universe in which God is judging the Earth and has taken away His Church; all that are left are those who refused Christ. Now they all must band together to survive the Tribulation and all the other events foretold thousands of years ago. It also has great imagery and talks about one of the four possibilities of Revelation.

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


25 May 2011

Day Off

Finally a day off!! Well, I'm on chapter 8 of Lady in Waiting, the chapter called "Lady of Security," and it's decent! I haven't gotten very far on the meditation journal, and I'm planning to re-read the book and do the study guide and the guides at the end of the chapter while finishing the meditation journal. Some days I have more to write than other days.

It was probably just the first chapter or something, since the past two chapters have been hitting home. I mean, everyone struggles with feelings of insecurity, and a Lady of Security is not overly jealous or paranoid! Insecure people get jealous easily, and they aren't fun to be around, and guys don't like it! They don't want to be tricked or deceived. I'm not saying I'm insecure, but sometimes you doubt. But we need to find our security in God, not men.

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


23 May 2011

The Last Song

I tried to watch The Last Song even though I dislike Miley Cyrus. It wasn't very successful. I watched an hour of it, but I just couldn't get into it. Nicholas Sparks is all right, but I just didn't like that movie! I wouldn't recommend it. I'm going to try I Am Number Four and The Switch.

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


22 May 2011


I'm so tired I don't know what to write about. I wish I had three days off, instead I'm working six days this week, 40 hours. Not what I was expecting when I "leaped" right into work!

So I'm going through Lady in Waiting, right? Well, at my work today was just me and three guys, a 54-year-old and a teenage boy and a 22-year-old. So the teenager asked me why I'm so nice, so I explained that I was a Christian. Well, I'm guessing it spread (I don't mind) and as soon as he had a free minute, the 22-year-old comes over and says, "So I hear you're a goody-goody Christian."

Great introduction! Well, it just got worse. I'm not sure if we were flirting or not but I think we both asked some pretty nosy questions (I personally think his was worse than mine).

He's like, "My questions aren't offending you, are they?"

And I said, "No, they're embarrassing, but I'm not offended. Ask away." I try to have an open policy.

And he snorted and chuckled.

So I hope we can be cool, he asks for my number every other day, I wouldn't mind him having my number, but it's weird! He has a fiance and a daughter, so I know he isn't serious about me, he just likes to tease.

Oh, we met our sales goal. Yay!

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


20 May 2011

Financial Aid

I'm so worried about my financial aid. What if I don't get enough?! That would be terrible. Even though some people don't get any, I usually get a good amount, and I'm glad. I hope I get a good amount. I mean, my parents pay taxes, so it's not like I'm living off the state!! I just want to know how much I need to save from my summer job for three semesters, roughly. You get less and less as the years progress, unfortunately. You need as much to start out with as you do to end with.

And apparently I'm "helping" out. And it's becoming embarrassing.

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


17 May 2011

Lady in Waiting

I'm currently going through the book Lady in Waiting in anticipation of my college group covering the book in the fall. It's all about using your time as a single woman well. It's actually a pretty interesting book, with good applicable chapters, although I will admit the meditation journal aspect is confusing. There are no clear directions, it's basically they give you some ideas and you're supposed to write what you get out of it, I think. That's what I've been doing. There's a Bible study, which mostly parallels Ruth, one of my favorite books of the Bible other than Luke, Ephesians, Proverbs and Genesis.

I have to admit, even though reading yet another purity book was not appealing (Every Young Woman's Battle has been the best so far I've read, very black and white) I know that a lot of girls struggle with the wait. I do sometimes. Although I get impatient, I think I'm arriving at the place where I don't know more about pleasing a boyfriend than pleasing the Lord and don't care to. I'm happy not being in the muck of young dating that many people endure, but neither will I be single for the rest of my life. So we will see! I've only gotten to chapter three. The book has an interesting perspective; I'd recommend it!!

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


16 May 2011


Cleaning is hard for me. There's not much place for anything else to go. I don't know what to get rid of. I've gotten rid of a lot of stuff already, yet my room still feels cluttered. It may always feel cluttered, even if I have nothing on the walls and nothing in my room. My room in Cape was cluttered. I think it will be even barer next fall. But I also found some good stuff! That's good! I also threw some stuff out. I don't want to be a hoarder!!!!! :)

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


15 May 2011

Pray for Courage!

I need courage to do something very hard for me. I can't say what, but know that I am determined to do it! Thanks!

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


14 May 2011

GPA this semester: 3.75

I'm so sad I didn't get a 4.0. Will I ever get a 4.0? I am so striving to get one. I don't even possess a 4.0 in either of my majors or my minor. I feel like a college failure.

I should be getting a 4.0, easy. I don't care what anyone says, my standards are high. I'm not chasing guys, so what's distracting me? Am I too busy? Am I preoccupied? Yes, my grades are important to me, and I do not identify with them anymore, but I still want them to be excellent. And a 3.6 IS good, but it's not enough. It will never be enough.

Next semester, I am going to work for a 4.0. I won't be satisfied with anything else. I will study more, and pray harder. No more laz a faire (not that I am, but sometimes I do procrastinate).

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


13 May 2011

Criminal Minds

I love Criminal Minds. I still like the episodes' backdrop, but the fleshing out of the characters is becoming annoying. They are definitely not just stock characters anymore, nor, really, were they ever. For instance, Morgan was the victim of childhood sexual abuse, which changed his life and made him an FBI agent, and his cousin was most likely killed by a stalker. Hotch's wife was murdered by his archenemy. Penelope was a criminal hacker. Gideon's "girlfriend" was murdered because of him and he left the show, practically insane. Reid's mother helped muder a "creepy" man who actually was a sexual predator and child-murderer she thought was after Reid. Emily was in a relationship with the leader of the IRA (Irish Republican Army) while a spy (who knew she was a spy?!). J.J. got pregnant out of wedlock. 

I'm glad I'm involved in the show, and it should continue, as Criminal Minds: Suspect Behavior is clearly not going to survive much longer. But how much longer can it survive?! Then again, Law and Order: SVU survived 12 years, Law and Order survived 19, and CSI: Miami is moving into his tenth season. 7th Heaven survived 10 seasons, the last six of which should never have been made.

I hope it survives a long time.

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


12 May 2011

Homeward Bound

In a few minutes, as soon as I grab lunch, I will be on my way home. I will be a second-semester junior, finally in my third year of college. I have conquered an internship with triumph, told I did an excellent job (I was pretty helpful). I will start back at my summer job tomorrow morning, Friday. I do not what that will hold, but any opportunity to avoid loans and to earn money to pay for school I will take, even fast food and a bit of a drive. With rising gas prices, I do not know how long that will last. It doesn't matter, though. A job is good, as long as I make money. I am leaving my friends, scattered across the Midwest and country in some cases, for three months; we must hope that three months away from each other does not dull our affection for one another, and that social networking sites really work for keeping in touch with others.

But I have God, and I can live anywhere and do anything with His help, and outreach to people at the same time. And that makes for a happy life.

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,

Psalm 91

11 May 2011


"A man only begins to live when he discovers the truth about himself" (Major Adams, Wagon Train). I know my truth: I am a child of God, meant to live in His divine image.

Man, I just realized that I am not a manual laborer. It's not that great. I wonder now about being a housewife (which I have never even considered). I intend that my husband and I will share the housework, and so help me, if that means I won't get a husband for awhile, so be it. Nor am I meant to work with people and money directly (but perhaps indirectly). I can't handle people's obsession with their money (and people ARE obsessed with their money). I doubt I'm supposed to be a businesswoman, I can't do what they do.

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


10 May 2011

Emery and Skillet

Gotta love Christian music. Some of it is not so bad, some of it is bad.

I love the bands Emery and Skillet.

EMERY: "Curse Of Perfect Days" and "Party On."

SKILLET: "Looking for Angels" and "Better than Drugs."

I love all of their songs, but these are great songs. They have good meanings, like don't forget there's more than just this life, and you don't need drugs to have a great life or get meaning or escape, you have Christ, and He helps you to live a successful life. It's not singing about lying and hurting and getting revenge. They want to be positive and upbeat.

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always, 


09 May 2011

Left Out

I feel left out. I ALWAYS say the wrong thing to them, and they always say the wrong thing to me. We just can't make amends. I feel left out. And it's not just that they say the wrong thing, but then they have the audacity to get offended. I mean, funnel your anger to other people. Or just take it to God and deal with it like a real Christian. Stop making excuses!! Hanging on to it is not just hurting you, it's hurting everyone you come into contact with. Grow up. 

You're totally going to think - and say - that I don't understand. No, I don't understand why you keep bringing it up. I don't understand why you haven't taken your problems to God and believed that He will take them away. I don't understand why you insist on throwing your problems around and trying to garner sympathy.




And if you're going to offend others, stop being sensitive. We don't all like the same things. Good thing!

Jesus is our therapist. Other people can only give us feel good answers. GOD GIVES FREEDOM!


What could you possibly say on judgement day? "Sorry, God, I just didn't know what to do." LIES! You do! Just beg the Holy Spirit to help you, and let He will if you believe!!!

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


08 May 2011

Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day!!

Even though I have finals starting in two days, I decided to trek home and see my mother for Mother's Day. Of course, this was probably a waste of gas since I will be home on Thursday, I know that my mom really appreciated it. Just like moms do. They always appreciate their children going the extra mile, just as they go the extra mile for their children.

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


07 May 2011

Future Ponderings

    I'm just sitting here, trying to unsuccessfully not think about my pending course project, which is mostly finished. For some reason I have not been motivated today. I really prefer Saturdays for my day of rest (unfortunately Sundays is usually the day that it is). Saturday is my favorite day, except in the summer when Saturday means that I am working on a busy day.
    I am pondering my future, as everyone is prone to do. I am not looking forward to graduating, yet I want to graduate as soon as possible. I really want a job, but what job? I don't know. It's like there's this job that my spirit longs for and it is somewhere off in the future. I know it subconsciously but not consciously. It's like there's a job that my spirit knows is after graduation. And lately I've been feeling more and more that I am not going to be getting a job the media, that I don't even want to be a reporter. Yet I don't want to drop my major and pick up another one. Does that even make sense? I have been contemplating starting my own business, but don't know. That's most likely where I'd go if I drop my Mass Communication degree. Or I'd become a preacher and study for that.

Maybe not, although I would like to do something like that. I really, really like researching more than anything else lately.

I seem to spend a lot of time desiring the future, which I absolutely am not sure is a good thing. Maybe if I focused on Heaven, of which I am a citizen, my home country, as opposed to Earth, then I would not ponder the future so much. I just know that I really want to get married. I didn't, at first. I thought I was willing to wait. And I am, until the right person comes along. But I hope that's soon, because I want to start building a family of my own. And it isn't wrong, and it isn't a sin.

I long to have a baby of my own. Today I saw my friend's baby going to sleep, with her smooth skin and chubbiness, and I remembered being in the nursery holding the babies while their parents are in the church service, and I just felt an ache in my arms. I have never had a baby, just seen my friends' babies, but for some reason I ached to be holding a baby. But until I either meet, or am drawn to, I'll admit I may already know him, my future husband, I will wait. But until then, I will try to prepare myself to be a wife and mother for God's glory :) That's all I can do.

And someone pointed out to make sure that I want to be a strong woman of God, not just a wife and mother. I agree! My primary goal (which I forget sometimes) is to be a woman of God who is a mother and wife. If I never marry or have children, I can still be a strong woman of God. And that is all that matters! "On Christ the solid rock I am built." 

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


06 May 2011

Pulling the Wool

If people are pulling the wool over others' eyes and saying the wrong stuff (not just about religious topics), should we confront them? I mean, what kind of bias crap are they listening to?

*Rolls eyes*

Not the news (which can be bias). Probably a professor or something, who has filtered the information through their own belief system, or what they are assuming based on what they have heard?

Faith comes by hearing. I guess that can, unfortunately, be applied to bad stuff. You get faith in something by hearing other people's opinions, which may or may not be true.

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


05 May 2011

Trying Out My New Present - A Bandanna!

How do I look?! Weird, crazy, hippie-ish? My hair looks good, although I'll be washing it tomorrow, so there's no way I look dirty! When people tell me they only wash their hair twice a week, or once a month, because of the type of hair they have, I cringe.

Yeah. Sometimes it's a physical cringe. Sometimes they see it, and quickly try to explain themselves and why they don't wash it regularly. They're lucky.

Subconsciously I am a little shocked, thinking, Their hair must be dirty. (Not always.) I am just thinking that if I tried to go without washing my hair for more than a day, people start asking if it's wet. I used to say yeah to save face - oily hair is embarrassing.  It's that oily. It gets oily - in the summer - in just a few hours. Ugh. I don't go outside for two reasons: a) I get a rash if I am outside too long, b) I feel dirty (although I am not) and c) I am too busy worrying about my hair to want to worry about my skin.

It's nasty. I have always had hair issues - my eyes and smile are my best features - and my hair is my most worried about aspect. I worry it's either not growing, it's not healthy or it's dirty. If it doesn't grow fast enough, I worry something's wrong. The only good thing is that it dries quickly (less than 20 minutes usually, if I dry it with a towel then let it air dry, like 10 minutes). That does not make up for having to constantly wash it.

It just hit me for the first time today - I just realized we really can't depend on others for our sense of style, looks and self-worth. I mean, people are always going to hurt you (sometimes on purpose, sometimes not) especially about a physical appearance, since people judge based on physical appearances :( sad truth.

But the Lord Jesus Christ, who made us in his image with his own hand, who put his Fingerprint of approval on our hearts, finds us so incredibly beautiful that nothing stands in His way of getting us, restoring us, and redeeming us, not even The Enemy Shuel (death, the grave, Hades [hell]). He doesn't want us to feel bad about our appearance, but Satan does. If we are caught up in the worries of the world (ie, physical appearance and comparing ourselves to others) Satan can render us useless to serve God.

And that is the biggest shame of all. But do not fear, we have overcome the world in the Lord Jesus Christ. Now let's lay hold of that truth and overcome our insecurities and doubts to embrace the lordship and love of Christ. I know I am!

                                                                                       Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,

04 May 2011


God's anger was not kindled against Balaam until he actually took the action and prepared to go, saddling his donkey (Numbers 22:22). In his heart he determined to go and curse the Israelites for money, but he had not yet committed the sin. When he committed the sin, or took the action, he infuriated God.

The same with Cain. Cain was angry.

Genesis 4:6 - So the LORD said to Cain, “Why are you angry? And why has your countenance fallen? If you do well, will you not be accepted? And if you do not do well, sin lies at the door. And its desire is for you, but you should rule over it.”

Cain could not control his fury, and God knew it, but he was giving him a way of escape. Control it, Cain. Rule over it, which you CAN do. Cain did not rule over it. But notice he was not punished until AFTER he killed Abel. God did not punish him for thinking angry thoughts, but for acting on it and sinning and not ruling over the sin and anger. 

Watch your thoughts, they become your actions. If you stop or rule over your thought life, your actions will line up with it If your heart is pure, your actions will mimic that, you will not sin and you will not enrage God.

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


03 May 2011

Osama Bin Laden and prayer

Ok, here is what I came up with. Half the people don't think we should celebrate, and half do. So my challenge is this: of the people on who pray, who really, truthfully prayed for bin Laden's salvation? 
Why should people feel guilty for celebrating? Fine, if some should feel guilty, maybe others should feel guilty for not praying for his salvation. God DOES allow the wicked to die, just like he lets good people die.
 It is too late to mourn Osama's lost soul as David found out, but we can do the Christian thing and pray for those who remain alive under him to accept Christ. "Lord let your light shine into their darkness."
Reference to David: 2 Samuel 12, where his child was dying. After he finally died, David stopped mourning, knowing there was nothing he could do for him. 
 "For it is the will of God that all men and women should be saved." 
 "But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and PRAY for those who spitefully use you and persecute you." - Matthew 5

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always, 


02 May 2011

I AM THAT I AM THAT I AM: Things to Dwell On and Pray About

I am God's child (John 1:12)
I am Christ's friend (John 15:15)
I have been justified (Romans 5:1)
I am united with the Lord and one with Him in spirit (1 Corinthians 6:17)
I have been bought with a price; I belong to God (1 Corinthians 6:20)
I am a member of Christ's body (1 Corinthians 12:27)
I am a saint (Ephesians 1:1)
I have been adopted as God's child (Ephesians 1:5)
I have direct access to God through the Holy Spirit (Ephesians 2:18)
I have been redeemed and forgiven of all my sins (Colossians 1:14)
I am complete in Christ (Colossians 2:10)
I am free forever from condemnation (Romans 8:1-2)
I am assured that all things work together for good (Romans 8:28)
I am free from any condemning charges against me (Romans 8:33-34)
I cannot be separated from the love of God (Romans 8:35, 38-39)
I have been established, anointed, and sealed by God (2 Corinthians 1:21-22)
I am confident that the good work God has begun in me will be perfected (Philippians 1:6)
I am a citizen of heaven (Philippians 3:20) '
I am hidden with Christ in God (Colossians 3:3)
I have not been given a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-discipline (2 Timothy 1:7)
I can find grace and mercy to help me in time of need (Hebrews 4:16)
I am born of God, and the evil one cannot touch me (I John 5:18)
I am the salt and light of the earth (Matthew 5:13-14)
I am a branch of the true vine, a channel of his life (John 15:1, 5)
I have been chosen and appointed to bear fruit (John 15-16)
I am a personal witness of Christ (Acts 1:8)
I am God's temple (1 Corinthians 3:16)
I am a minister of reconciliation (2 Corinthians 5:17-20)
I am God's coworker (2 Corinthians 6:1)
I am seated with Christ in the heavenly realms (Ephesians 2:6)
I am God's workmanship (Ephesians 2:10)
I may approach God with freedom and confidence (Ephesians 3:12)
I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength (Philippians 4:13)
I am not ashamed of Christ (Romans 10:11)
I am beautiful, both inside and out (1 Peter 3:3-5)
I am not anyone’s Messiah! (John 3:16) 
I am beloved and loved of God! (John 3:16)
I have eternal life in Jesus Christ, God’s only begotten Son (John 3:16)
I am a God-pleaser, not a people-pleaser (Galatians 1:10)

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,


01 May 2011

Osama Bin Laden is dead...Good riddance!

    The man's in hell, unless he believed in God and asked for Christ's forgiveness.
    A news anchor said that we would forever remember where we were when we heard that Osama Bin Laden was dead. Well, I was in the middle of an area under a flood warning, at my college sitting in my room watching CSI: Miami, working on my course project, and wishing that my Internet worked better so that I could actually hear the coverage. Sept. 11, 2001, two planes bombed the twin towers. On May 1, 2011, Osama Bin Laden was announced dead to the American public, 5 months before the tenth anniversary of the attack on the Twin Towers.
    I bet the people in New York City are either crying with joy or planning parties. I know the Midwest probably is.
    I figured Bin Laden would outlive all of us. Thank God he didn't! He got exactly what he deserved: he lived by the gun, and he died by the gun (hopefully)! Although this isn't the end of the War on Terrorism because terrorism is in the hearts of people and they have raised up an army over there, it's a HUGE step, and gives us some hope. 

Praying you have faith, hope, and love always,